The Roommate Experience

At the age of 18 I lived in a rented room with a family member who was rarely home. At 19 I had my own apartment with my young son. At 21 I was married and paid for an apartment for my boyfriend in a city 200+ miles away, while I helped his grandparents by staying with them until we were married. We soon got an apartment, and then a home. I retained the house until after the divorce, then I got my own apartment, met the true love of my life and ythe the damn finally burst, after a year and a half of alcohol, bad decisions, my past caught up with me. I had to finally face everything that had happened, good and bad, and finally deal with it. My mind snapped. I lost my job and my ability to be a productive member of society. Then I met the love of my life and he rescued me. We lived together, and as my mind and body deteriorated he stepped up and took care of our beautiful daughter and his now 'crazy' wife. 

Life isn't easy, supporting a stay at home mom & a young daughter. 

We have found ourselves in a position where roommates are a necessity, to help both families. 

I have decided that having a small army of children is not for me. The 'introvert' side of me thrives in the calm at the moment, and having 3-7 children at any given time is an insane thought and decision. 

Whe life gives you lemons you make lemonade, as long as the children don't hide them! 

Look up

It's amazing the strength that is hidden inside when the only thing you can do is hit your knees and pray that it will all be okay. 

2015 - phew! Boy, am I glad you are gone!!

January Trever was hauling Nitrogen in New Mexico things were okay on the home front, struggling with stomach issues, but still movin forward. 

February; The infamous trip to visit Trever in New Mexico. Let's just say long term stay hotels are not the best place to spend an extended period of time 👎 oh, and Happy Birthday Trever, we are laying everyone off. 

March; found out we were pregnant -oh my- just kidding, failed pregnancy, emergency surgery to ensure no tubule pregnancy. 

APRIL 23rd 4:51pm a moment in history that will NEVER be forgotten 

A message from my aunt & a phone cal. "Molly, it's about your Daddy, he's been in a motorcycle accident, he didn't make it." My heart was ripped out of my chest, I had groceries in my hand and I just crumbled onto the floor. I honestly cannot remember the next 24 hours, I know I called Jenna, I called Trever & my mom. My sister came over and we were on an airplane the next day. 10 days in Yuma, a miscarriage, a memorial(5/1/15), and my wedding.(5/2/15) 

June-August Trever was working in ND again for this awesome company, family housing, etc etc -just kidding work has stopped. More hospital visits, ER staff and I are on first name basis;)

September/October We sell everything that is not nailed down in our home, Trever starts local job, praise The Lord!!!

November-December more medical, in and out of hospital 12/4 hospitalized for blood clots, and the whole house gets the mother of all colds, and we're moving!! 

We've survived the most trying year to date, God has carried us by the skin of our teeth as him and the devil fight for our souls. 

You don't know you're strength until the only direction to look is up. I pray 2016 is more kind & uneventful, but we have the best defense team in the world!

I Would Do It Again

You are too young to understand the meaning of unconditional love and the sacrifices a mom makes, but someday you will. 

I carried you 9 months you caused great pain and beauty marks that will last a lifetime 

I would do it again

You kept me up so many nights when you first arrived, no matter how tired I was I would jump out of bed to comfort you

I would do it again

As the months flew by you found your voice, you would scream for hours for no reason at all, so I would hold you tight and wear out the carpet pacing and rocking you

I would do it again

Once you learned to walk I tried to protect you from falling and chase you from dawn until the wee hours of the following morning, and hold you once you ran out of energy

I would do it again 

Once you decided that mom's rules were no fun and learned to climb on chairs it would raise my blood pressure to unsafe levels

I would still guide you and catch you

When you've watched mom in the kitchen so many times, you decided you needed to be there to help me any chance you could. Once I was pulling a hot pan out of the oven, you decided the best place to be was behind me, and instead of dropping a hot pan on you I decided to fall & throw the pan away from your direction, I broke my wrist in the process but you were safe. 

I would do it again 

You are quite the little helper, you decided mom didn't need a seat to sit on, so you removed it for me, causing me to fall on the chair and injure my back. You asked if I was okay, I of course lied and said I was okay because you were safe. 

I would tell you I'm okay a million times so you wouldn't get upset. 

On the days you were sick and not your rambunctious self, I sat up day and night listening to you cough and arguing with you about the need for an accurate temperature. 

I would still cuddle you, watch videos with you, and get that temperature every time. 

Everyday is a new adventure, every minute is 60 seconds I will never get back. 

You are my strong willed angel. I ask that you spread your wings, you grow and never stop learning. 

Know that mommy is nowhere near perfect, but I hope you know always try my best, and I would do it all again! 

You are a force to be reckoned with but I would not change one thing about you.

I love you my little Abagail  

Electronic hog

Oh the phases they go through! She's been ahead on everything so far, and the "terrible two's" is no exception! She has become a bit spoiled, to no ones surprise I'm sure, if she doesn't get her way, and fast, we are privy to a blood curdling, ear drum popping screaming and crying episode. Consistency is key in raising a child, so unfortunately she does hear "No" from time to time much to her dismay. 

As easy as it would be to just hand over what she wants, I gotta be a good mom. Her current interests are my phone and tablet. Every time she hears her daddy's ringtone she gets all excited and jumps into my lap and looks for his face on my phone. And when we do FaceTime she wants to hold the phone, he can only see the top of her head, so I must help her and ensure the safety of my electronic device(s) she tries so hard to be in charge of electronics. Luckily Christmas is right around the corner and we have found a toy to apease her growing electronic needs and interests. Hopefully this will decrease the amount of meltdowns and ear trauma. One can hope 😊

Too smart for mom

Our little angel is quite the problem solver. I have tried my best to "trick" her. Ie giving her an old remote to play with instead if the ones we need to run the tv and radio. Much to my dismay she has pointed her remote at the tv and realized that nothing happens, then she's on the hunt for the real remotes. She has also grown to the perfect height to reach the table top, counter top and into the top drawers. She has also learned that the baby proof latches on the cabinets and drawers can be bypassed if she merely uses all her strength and breaks them. 😣 My drilling skills are getting quite awesome! I can replace a latch in mere minutes and very few "baby friendly curse words." But, I do have to admit I am running out of high hiding places. I have managed to move family portraits and clear the top of the computer desk, but after so long it appears I have "pile it disease." (Pile it here...... Pile it there...) hopefully she will start getting better with her words and we can put more emphasis on shapes, colors and letters 😄 But, for now, we will take each milestone in stride and learn how to overcome our little ones growing curiosity and height 

Have a little faith

Faith is defined as "complete trust or confidence in someone or something" 

I personally, put my faith in God, our Lord and Savior. 

Things have been tough in the Kynaston household. Unfortunately his current job is not cutting it. The hours are just not there. We are hoping and praying that a new job opportunity pans out. He is an amazing man and I have complete faith in the outcome.  But in the meantime, my poor fingernails may not survive (biting my nails :/) Chin up. 

I know that if we hand things over to God and have complete faith in the outcome, everything will work out. 

Daddy fixes boo boos

Even when daddy is 1,000 miles away he can make baby Abagail happy. Last night she was running around and fell down and hit her head on the floor. She (of course) screamed bloody murder. I comforted her and loved on her, she calmed down a bit. So we called daddy, she saw his face and he talked to her and she was fine. (Although she looks a bit frightened in the above photo) daddy makes it all better.